A Light Through The Window

A light through the window

The window beckoned me with a place to rest,

a place to be, a stillness to believe and a future to hope.

I remember of times past and thought of my future.

I asked the light to never leave, to stay with me as I continue on.

I remember the warmth of my past and how we all can be warm

lights in this world.

I took time and then the light took leave.

It stayed long enough for me to have hope, to be strong 

and not to give in. I needed to know this,

I need it more than anything.

We are all windows and sometimes we have no choice

in who looks within, we cannot decide to have only the sun,

for sometimes the light diminishes and becomes tempest and storm.

Thank you bright light, thank you God for believing in me.

Help me believe and let my unbelief do glorious and wonderful deeds in your name.

To the light and all who dwells within its warmth, I thank you.

Leaving

Leaving

I started leaving weeks ago

when no one else could see

A journey back to beginning times

a coming home for me

It is not easy, it never is

and my older heart grows cold

but my spirit rises even on,

despite the tear and toil

At 40 I should stay asleep

be blind to what I see

but I at 40 journey on

it is what's best for me

I rise again, I always will

My spirit soars to do

 echo memories in my heart

Behold I make all things anew

Not the easiest choice I make

 I have no sense to fall

but I know that deep live life in sleep

is to miss life's silent call

it is not easy, it never is

but I know its true for be

to live a life with no leaving intent

would be no life lived for me

Strong

For the days when our strength deserts us.... 

Strong

Days when I am stronger than I ever hoped to be

the days my strength did fail me

in the shadow

 blind to see

The days that I am strong enough to

take the world to change

the days that I am weak and low

no jailer bound with chains

The ties that bind run cut and deep

run close now to my veins

the thoughts that run to send me off

to dreams that never sleep

The strength it comes from deep within

a push to silent change

let strength now stand me guarded

now, break through silent chains

so strong and sure my spirit rise

in my life and death each day surprise

be strong by day, strength last till call

to catch me when life trips my fall

some days I am strong

some days I am weak

the next day calls for stronger, strongest

in my strength my weak tastes sweet

Rain

Rain

the rain it falls as listless deep

the memories fall, their secrets keep

the distant noise of rain fall chatter

the wind it blows on bay shore latter

it reminds me of my home from home

and times that I have felt alone

the window glass is gleam pane clear

like a heart that holds a thorn so dear

so fall the rain, to listen wonder

the sky so full, the call of thunder

i wait and grasp your air full grace

awash anew my soul cleansed face

Drunk On Pity

Drunk On Pity

the eye it stares through slanting eve

aware of my over wanting vicarious need

the tumble of blind man drunk on pity

head cast down upon the Liffey

pity break of broken friend

you come you stay when will you end?

find other heart, door to visit

with taste of heart my prayer illicit

no stranger roads to life's hard blow

suffered needless suffer slow

my hand it cleaves, it lives to die

awaken, arise you must prepare

for life's great great next, its one more try

Three In One

Three In One

i beheld the three who sit on chair

like a child, i peaked from top of stair

the clock it ticked and slowly chimed

the three moved rythem, step in rhyme

from where you come and where do you go?

from creed or law please tell me so

were you always begotten, beyond flesh and place

reveal your nature, show your face

they answered in unison strong voice in one

their voice seared light as deep as sun

the answer lies here, not in time in space

in you we find our resting place

your body is our daily bread

you nourish sustain, in you we are fed

your heart and mind no thought erase

in you we reveal our hidden face

Finals

Finals

Waited so long for you this time around

words in my head flow through with make rhyme sound

i find that my brain is now taking its toll

let if flow freely plant feet in firm soil

it's advent in finals, i find that i wait

its all about words flowing free through the gate

at 2:10 today i stand and deliver

to find in my learning my gold and my silver

time to let freely flow wake in its stead

i wait for the day i leave words in my head

this week is for living, to find life in grace

to keep my self focused and a smile on my face

so greet your words firmly arise and let go

find the answer you seek for and never say no

its time for my finals at last they are here

and in my free thinking i know you are near

The Annunciation

The Annunciation

Time to knock, live in do tell

what issued forth from beggars hands?

What woven casting spell the earth

heaven colliding understand

The meeting of minds one life being

that day the angel stood and asked,

the day God began to be seen and more

a mere soft touch on human door

She did not wait by the telephone

she never heard it ring

instead she heard the voices cry, 

she heard the voices sing

She understood that asking is and ever shall it be

like a stone that flung on pebble rock

a stone thats cast at sea

I hear you call I understand

we both can see to tell

the spell I cast from my own held hand

is not a road to hell

Annunc to me, I say to you

in land break forth the tide

enlist the life of todays one choice

and find no more to hide

So if you hear the good news joy

rejoice for evermore

and listen always take heed to hear

the knock upon your door

Broken

Broken

The toys lay in the corner

Bruised battered broken things

Their voices spoke silent in the dark

No happy songs to sing

A broken toy is worthless

discard from sight through door

no life to love to celebrate

leave it lying on the floor

but toys are limber, they spark new life

touch brings them back to form

like broken discarded toys of life

seek grace among the thorn

where then does new life come around?

Where wakens life to toy’s new sound?

New life I breathe and celebrate

with the one who always liberates

The King Who Wears The Crown

Fall

I don't have the stomach to write about Ireland's situation at the moment, but I had to write something. I am so proud to be Irish but so sad to think that we ended up like this... 

Fall

We were once a nation

That stood to stand so tall

How sad this day that I have lived

To watch as you now fall

Our churches did desert us

Politicians died to lie

We voted devils into place

Now our death rings out, you die

No hand to hold or cling to

A leper we have to die

A country bound and sacrificed

But the banks and devils lie

I hate the politicians

 the people who vote them in

The disgust I have is not suppressed

It’s just a worthless lie

Too little good too little

O little lies you tell

You grew fat and took our dignity

 send us now to IMF hell

So, now we have new rulers

New rulers to rule us all

I hope that you are happy

Fuck the banks that made us fall

I will now remember

I will not forget

I know now that you fat cats lie

Let you carry now our debt.

Go to hell.

Deepwood Drive

Deepwood Drive

You went back home when you felt alone

Taking life lost love, both gathered and borne

The woods behind the house did beckon

You crafted new worlds, a home house to live in

A place alone only where you can return to

The woods give God thanks, their song is to love you

Remember the light that peak shine in the dark

As you herald the morning with song of the lark

The virgin stands watchful, casts peaceful wide eye

She walks with you now and she will till you die

Chemo is wandering tails and new paths

And the virgin will guide him to light from the dark

Give yourself time and cry if you will

Knock on our door; let your heart now be still

Your life is full motion of which you are part

Prepare the way forward, let go, now take heart

God laugh God cry God push forward to live

 let go of your wealth, time now receive give

with others you journey on this Emmaus road

like the paths woods at evening, they call you to home 

Goodbye To Unnecessary Things

Goodbye To Unnecessary Things

You do not write the chapter

And never will you be

A voice that speaks with dignity

You lack the clarity

You whisper words from listless lips

You murmur when you touch

Your goals and setting selfish desire

Like a fool who got too much

You color people defile their souls

Like rocks made out of glass

You tear the seams from inside out

Your class a cloak for thrash

You lead with empty dignity

Your breath is fowl as gutter

Your razor bleeding voice as sharp

As you scream your lies to other

Your bloody hands and sharpened claws

Betray your foul soul center

You lock the door of heavens gate

Defy any one to enter

But not to such as you is life

A given or a pleasure

You broke the chest of compassion's gate

And stole away its treasure

Your time is up, its time to go

You are no child of light

Be gone with you, fall fast away

Awash in to the night


Goodbye...
Unnecessary...
Things.

Reading Week

Reading Week

A time to wait to catch my breath

To float in flow with life and death

Time stop track, time slow to turn

to give my soul a chance to learn

I spent my time with a glass of wine

With friends and beer in stand good cheer

We visited times in turn gone by

And swam in waters that warmed me dry

We spoke of God and countries far

And why people are so drawn to war

What future has life set in store

Foe we are not people of this shore

We gathered softly warm intent

To gaze on God’s sweet love intent

These days are life grown fully sown

To thank life that we do not live alone

So rest and wade and sleep these days

Lest your eye in self, with drowsy gaze

A willing release of life ease slow

To ready self when it is time to go.

Columbus

Columbus

Ships sailed into the bay today

Like Columbus did so yesterday

The sun shined forth with warm brush ray

O herald the sojourn on pilgrim path way

The Blue Jets flew rush wind overhead

With noise so wide it would waken the dead

People gathered to gaze at light evening star

To watch tall ships sail from near and afar

I sat and watched as visitor do

With sun blaze overhead in sunshine blue

Like Columbus who travelled through oceans and land

We travel long distance and what did we find?

I sailed here today on the back of a whale

As I returned with my stories, wonders and tale

Of the ships and the bay, so wide and so blue

Of gates that are golden and always anew

My ships do not battle or travel too far

My Blue Jets are silent and never at war

The people who gather are one of one mind

That peace in our world is ever to find

Columbus set sail and follow the stars

Set our course for a world that will never know war

Let weary and wounded and broken things mend

And ever and always let war come to an end

Augustine.

My Construction Theology class throws me in many directions. I love it. I have written so much about the body and Augustine in this last week that I am pleasantly perplexed... Augustine, you ole devil you....

Augustine

Augustine were you happy?

Did anybody cry?

Did you pull the sheets above your head

as you lay in wait to die?

Did anybody hold your hand?

Did they bring you wine and bread?

Did you worry what would happen

when you said hello to death?

I sometimes read confessions with

and air of I don't care

but I know you wrote some dazzle worthy

lines, like God's brushstrokes on air

I would have sat beside you

I would have held your hand

I would have watched you write your books

host the Holy marching band!

I know your in the garden talking to the snake

i know the snake is glad

to find his long lost found 

soul mate

Augustine don't you worry

Augustine, don't you care

Augustine pull the covers off

rise up, you are not dead

forget now I will do for you

go on and just let go

of sin and body mind and head

and have that beer instead.

Voices

Today was a good day. I got to thinking of all those brave people who have no voice. People from the past and today. Voices, speak it so.

Voices

Voices speaking from yonder room

a time gone by lost too soon

voice of struggle and listless woe

swept away by long ago

I mourn for ones who never had

The chance to find their voice in part

Sadness overcame today

For voices lost and far away

My own voice silent, no word at hand

No stand to call to take a stand

No use of fingerprint voice of God

 a silent void, fear never allowed

no offer now of happy ending

of golden voices crescendo ascending

instead I think of voices past

they whisper, awaken voice to start

someday I think I will be too late

that my voice in prison will never escape

today I know to make a stand

and hold my voice like child in hand

do you speak it loudly, speak it low

I tell you speak it, I tell you so

Give heart to love attentive ear

Crack open word, ring voices near

Today I listened to craft story tell

Of life and death, a heaven and hell

My voice in prison overcome

My Silent chains by voice undone

For in the beginning but never the end

Come voices past, speak through again

You Saints of burden long ago

Speak clear voice loud, speak it so

Sunshine On My Skin

Today. Lots of Sun. I love the Sun.

Sunshine On My Skin

 Sunshine on my pale white skin

In lifetime favorite no small thing

Power of sun deep filled tent sigh

Sun baked oven hot big sun sky

My skin all while light mountain snow

Turn brown through time with sun rays glow

My blood flesh form to satisfy to body

Cravings intensity

body butter cocoa apply

 to skin touch taste see sanctify

Soothing cooling touch of treasure

Awaken craving for life’s pleasures

I bake so sun screen cover up

Too much will later give a shout

But bit by bit, through time rest place

My body white to brown new space

I walk across the quad with wonder

Stop dead in track with moments ponder

From Ice and snow I did depart

the Sun today did capture self heart

Too Loose With The Truth

The Amazing Paula Sohl.

Too Loose With The Truth

The sun it was a shining down

The children played at ball

We spoke about the garden

And the Genesis of fall

Too loose with the truth Paula said

As we twirled around the text

It looked a bit conspicuous

Where can you go to next?

I never gave a wonder to

 a Christ in Serpent set

to wake me to a new idea

in heaven can you bet?

I like the greeny garden

I refuse to leave or go

I’m staying put and planting feet

going to slither on ground low

It ended with some bottled beer

A toast to Heavens fall

Paula spoke about the truth

gardens Snakes and all

So, now you know

now I tell, but do I speak the truth?

You better watch and take some care

The Serpent’s on the loose

Watch out!

Truth

This is what I am thinking about today. Truth. I like these thoughts…..

Truth

Truth you evade me

No matter how I try

But can I say that in your heart

There lies a trace of lie?

Do you come and visit

And stay but for a while

Or do you never come at all

Not willing to run the mile?

O Truth, you stay long distant short

You never let me tell

For the day I find I found you Truth

Is a day of loss despair

I promise I will continue to hunt

You night and day

Just let me know if you are near or

If you’re far away

I don’t recall truth as heaven sent

It leaves me now to wonder

Instead I sit and calmly wait even

Through story cloud thunder

Always seeking, never finding

Points me to the day

That my restless heart will rest

In truth but that day is not today

illumen

Today. Amazing Voices. Kindness. Presence. Patience. Joy. A day lived.

illumen

Thankful, grateful so belated

to hear the word truth celebrated

river flow through people voices

tasting words many choices

circle gathered round table note

nervous break word, open voice spoke

like sun that shines clear crystal light

words alive in life took flight

no better company could I share

than table fellowship with vibrant care

Spirit flowed with admiration

a testimony to our determination

Preach it teach it yes or no

with open heart in God I know

voices hear speak shadow call

illumen darkness in world that falls

Today through voice I came to know

the richness planted God did so

gathered as one as like in Christ

 friends voices awaken me back to life