A Light Through The Window

A light through the window

The window beckoned me with a place to rest,

a place to be, a stillness to believe and a future to hope.

I remember of times past and thought of my future.

I asked the light to never leave, to stay with me as I continue on.

I remember the warmth of my past and how we all can be warm

lights in this world.

I took time and then the light took leave.

It stayed long enough for me to have hope, to be strong 

and not to give in. I needed to know this,

I need it more than anything.

We are all windows and sometimes we have no choice

in who looks within, we cannot decide to have only the sun,

for sometimes the light diminishes and becomes tempest and storm.

Thank you bright light, thank you God for believing in me.

Help me believe and let my unbelief do glorious and wonderful deeds in your name.

To the light and all who dwells within its warmth, I thank you.

Leaving

Leaving

I started leaving weeks ago

when no one else could see

A journey back to beginning times

a coming home for me

It is not easy, it never is

and my older heart grows cold

but my spirit rises even on,

despite the tear and toil

At 40 I should stay asleep

be blind to what I see

but I at 40 journey on

it is what's best for me

I rise again, I always will

My spirit soars to do

 echo memories in my heart

Behold I make all things anew

Not the easiest choice I make

 I have no sense to fall

but I know that deep live life in sleep

is to miss life's silent call

it is not easy, it never is

but I know its true for be

to live a life with no leaving intent

would be no life lived for me

Strong

For the days when our strength deserts us.... 

Strong

Days when I am stronger than I ever hoped to be

the days my strength did fail me

in the shadow

 blind to see

The days that I am strong enough to

take the world to change

the days that I am weak and low

no jailer bound with chains

The ties that bind run cut and deep

run close now to my veins

the thoughts that run to send me off

to dreams that never sleep

The strength it comes from deep within

a push to silent change

let strength now stand me guarded

now, break through silent chains

so strong and sure my spirit rise

in my life and death each day surprise

be strong by day, strength last till call

to catch me when life trips my fall

some days I am strong

some days I am weak

the next day calls for stronger, strongest

in my strength my weak tastes sweet

Rain

Rain

the rain it falls as listless deep

the memories fall, their secrets keep

the distant noise of rain fall chatter

the wind it blows on bay shore latter

it reminds me of my home from home

and times that I have felt alone

the window glass is gleam pane clear

like a heart that holds a thorn so dear

so fall the rain, to listen wonder

the sky so full, the call of thunder

i wait and grasp your air full grace

awash anew my soul cleansed face

Drunk On Pity

Drunk On Pity

the eye it stares through slanting eve

aware of my over wanting vicarious need

the tumble of blind man drunk on pity

head cast down upon the Liffey

pity break of broken friend

you come you stay when will you end?

find other heart, door to visit

with taste of heart my prayer illicit

no stranger roads to life's hard blow

suffered needless suffer slow

my hand it cleaves, it lives to die

awaken, arise you must prepare

for life's great great next, its one more try

Three In One

Three In One

i beheld the three who sit on chair

like a child, i peaked from top of stair

the clock it ticked and slowly chimed

the three moved rythem, step in rhyme

from where you come and where do you go?

from creed or law please tell me so

were you always begotten, beyond flesh and place

reveal your nature, show your face

they answered in unison strong voice in one

their voice seared light as deep as sun

the answer lies here, not in time in space

in you we find our resting place

your body is our daily bread

you nourish sustain, in you we are fed

your heart and mind no thought erase

in you we reveal our hidden face

Finals

Finals

Waited so long for you this time around

words in my head flow through with make rhyme sound

i find that my brain is now taking its toll

let if flow freely plant feet in firm soil

it's advent in finals, i find that i wait

its all about words flowing free through the gate

at 2:10 today i stand and deliver

to find in my learning my gold and my silver

time to let freely flow wake in its stead

i wait for the day i leave words in my head

this week is for living, to find life in grace

to keep my self focused and a smile on my face

so greet your words firmly arise and let go

find the answer you seek for and never say no

its time for my finals at last they are here

and in my free thinking i know you are near